There have been many such times in my life and some have been far more testing than others. Then I could not look forward. I did not know what to do; what was right and what was wrong? Like a fall leaf I felt I was withered and no longer tethered with the tree that I was attached to. Swirling in the air and twirling in the wind; I felt that I had no path and no future. And there were some times I even felt that I could not take the burden of this life anymore.
But then came the Sun. Every time there was darkness, then came by light. Most of the times I did not see the brightness yet; I did not see the rightness yet; but I saw light. And before I could realize, I was glazing and blazing with no sign of fear or fright. HE gave me the courage and power to rise up to my feet and come out even stronger and even more determined. I fell and I rose up. I rose up and I stood. Stood steady and stood strong to fight it out. I am so glad I could make it.
I now realize that I should not question. I have time and again circled into continuous battle of why things have happened wrong when I was right? But maturity that came to me out of the relentless struggles has taught me now that if I never questioned why HE gave me so many joys then I have no right to ask as to why I am also entitled to sorrows. I know these are passing phases. Each one will pass. End of one is the beginning of another and end of another is the beginning of yet another. I need to keep my faith strong, keep my path straight and stay focused with what I have in hand. I have learnt that life has its own path carved out for me and every time I am put to test; I need to stay strong at my roots and keep going the most right way I can. Someone once said, it is very easy to choose between a right path and a wrong path but it is difficult to choose the best between two right paths and the most appropriate between two wrong paths. I believe in my beliefs and my faith and I know for sure that I will be guided through my decisions on the right way in the right direction, no matter how gloomy the road looks now.
I am now on a gloomy road and I see nothing except uncertainties, doubts and fear. But I also tell myself, that this is not the sharpest of the turns. I will cruise along just fine. It’s just a matter of time. :)
